Writing this after reading a quote from one of Buddha’s saying about believing.
It has been months since I have stopped blogging, if blogging was what I was doing to begin with. All I remember doing was finding a subject that is high on the agenda or something that catches my attention and write about it lately I have been overwhelmed with so many things that I believed are important, so important that it was hard to choose one from the other. Choosing was not the only problem, the most difficult part was believing in the depth of the matter and as to what level it agrees with my reasoning and conviction above all whether my reasoning are truly what I believe in.
I had asked myself “Does my opinion really matter?” “Who does it matter to?” whether it should really matter and if it is appropriate to believe that it matters.
It requires thinking inwardly to answer these questions. The first question I had for myself was “why do I write and why do I feel like I need to share my view?”, “Is it for the need of narcissistic intention of seeking approval?” maybe it is. Nevertheless, that cannot be a reason because half the time my views are not well calipered to resonate with what majority in my camp think. (That is what I think)
Narcissism, in its lose sense, is something that social network generation all share, it is common illness that we all are willing to tolerate. (Open for criticism)
Again that pushes another question to ponder “What am I bring different to the table? Is it truly a new idea or same old criticism, which apparently does not require any capacity? ” Therefore, if the answer is yes then what is the point of blogging? None of this produced certainty to why I should blog.
Who do I blog for anyway?
The only certainty that I have is that I blog for myself, because I want to vent and I want to grow. I have come to learn that sharing ideas is the best way to grow. It is a self-fulfilling prophecy for growth. You share, you believe, you act upon it , others react that reaction is the result or your feedback which boosts up your belief.
What I have learned is that perspective is not simple and insights are endless, we cannot define what we are by just doing what we have been doing in the past. Our daily rituals determine our commitments but they don’t limits we can believe in. Therefore, the one thing that is important to us at one point may become something of lesser value, in the process importance shift with reasoning.
We keep on evolving and keep on changing, that is the growth process, which is inevitable, but the way we grow is in our minds and hearts. It is a choice we can take.
In all, I decided to start blogging again, share and see what happens.